Return-path: Envelope-to: samantha@infinitywebdesign.us Delivery-date: Sun, 01 Dec 2013 23:44:36 -0700 Received: from [64.12.143.80] (port=52457 helo=omr-m06.mx.aol.com) by rsb23.rhostbh.com with esmtps (TLSv1:RC4-SHA:128) (Exim 4.80) (envelope-from ) id 1VnNFD-0002H2-Jq for samantha@infinitywebdesign.us; Sun, 01 Dec 2013 23:44:36 -0700 Received: from mtaomg-da03.r1000.mx.aol.com (mtaomg-da03.r1000.mx.aol.com [172.29.51.139]) by omr-m06.mx.aol.com (Outbound Mail Relay) with ESMTP id 45697700308C7 for ; Mon, 2 Dec 2013 01:44:34 -0500 (EST) Received: from core-dkd001b.r1000.mail.aol.com (core-dkd001.r1000.mail.aol.com [172.29.86.79]) by mtaomg-da03.r1000.mx.aol.com (OMAG/Core Interface) with ESMTP id EDE80E000081 for ; Mon, 2 Dec 2013 01:44:33 -0500 (EST) To: samantha@infinitywebdesign.us Subject: Re: web design X-MB-Message-Source: WebUI X-MB-Message-Type: User MIME-Version: 1.0 From: profw7@aol.com Content-Type: multipart/alternative; boundary="--------MB_8D0BD411835BBBA_13D0_223B7D_webmail-d171.sysops.aol.com" X-Mailer: AOL Webmail 38203-STANDARD Received: from 76.213.221.2 by webmail-d171.sysops.aol.com (205.188.252.95) with HTTP (WebMailUI); Mon, 02 Dec 2013 01:44:33 -0500 Message-Id: <8D0BD4118277374-13D0-98631@webmail-d171.sysops.aol.com> X-Originating-IP: [76.213.221.2] Date: Mon, 2 Dec 2013 01:44:33 -0500 (EST) x-aol-global-disposition: G DKIM-Signature: v=1; a=rsa-sha256; c=relaxed/relaxed; d=mx.aol.com; s=20121107; t=1385966674; bh=8XixPHHNsbbXr54Tla8SXt8vQrT5YttTaV7lLKSu/B8=; h=From:To:Subject:Message-Id:Date:MIME-Version:Content-Type; b=a7wJlISeLbXCVT62uUZJXw4hhXnY/MdomRURSy64rAuM5seJqr+w9hE8rBYwk57le WRP95A7DN4yO7dFDRL/XM3DMHtNQoo950kJ0xP3NevVxB4CqiB2vwYfEkEA1wqdQ71 vpsz2uZgyCetPS2+PC/62IJqWlXtiqcKQaoOXWzw= x-aol-sid: 3039ac1d338b529c2c515eda This is a multi-part message in MIME format. ----------MB_8D0BD411835BBBA_13D0_223B7D_webmail-d171.sysops.aol.com Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable Content-Type: text/plain; charset="utf-8" just a note added to your messages that isn't spam ... or about shopping ..= . just about you ... be good to yourself ...=20 give yourself room ... it is important to leave room for difficulties in yo= ur schedule ... few things go as smooth as we would like ...=20 I forget what we last talked about ... I still in the future want to do the= web site ... I wanted to tell you that I there a lot of people who want to= monetize something that they do ... I have heard about the different blogs= and was of making money doing them ... just thought I would through that i= n the mix for you to think about if you have not ... it is something I want= to do ... along with a website ... I have never decided on "why" on want t= he site though ... I am creative ... but, do I want to form a non-profit ..= . or just a for profit dot com .... or just a convenient way to give out wh= at I do ... I'm pasting in some of my more recent writing just as a blessin= g to you if you get a chance to read any ...=20 take care, Roy @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ November 29, 2013 To my running friends: Rememberyou are the best research you will ever find= . Coach Roy To those facing addiction issues: Facing emotion is thehardest part. Befor= e you just washeddifficult emotions away or numbed them away. You did not f= ace them. Thebiggest issue is just the amount of time. You hear other peop= le say how short the days are or how they do not haveenough time. But your= day seems to lastforever sometimes. If you have nothingto do then your me= mory kicks in and you start overthinking everything. You feel a sense of d= oom sometimes or thatyou are forgetting something. The dayseems forever an= d you want to find a way to shorten it. You want to find a way to not face= thethoughts and emotions. That is thetemptation to relapse. =20 This is difficult and you need the love of God and the loveof your loved on= es to face it. But youhave to face the thoughts, weaknesses, and memories.= All of them create emotion like a little ballin your belly. You can throw= it into the future by drinking or numbing itanother way. But you have don= e thatbefore and you see you are facing it again now. The only survivable a= nswer is to face it now. Face it for all its ugliness and you willfind tha= t it is very bad and there are results too terrible for you to face alone. = That is why you need God in your life. You need to know there is somethin= g largerthan you because you are facing problems larger than you. You do not have to face them all at one. At some point your own meeting ha= s to end forthe day. There are lots of issues thatare your fault, lots tha= t are the fault of others and just a whole lot of badstuff you cannot figur= e out. You canface little bits of it each day. You canovercome little pie= ces each day. You canallow for the horribleness of life and the greatness = of life to exist. You can face both and face it completely intime. Just g= ive yourself the time. =20 Each of those pieces that you face will begin to lose powerover you. It wi= ll always in thislifetime affect you but it does not have to control you. = The negative of the past does not have tocause you to drink or do drugs. I= t is assimple as that. Your life can be free ofthat not matter how much da= mage has been done. Remember, many of the emotions you will feel are not re= ally you. Many negative emotions have been implantedinto you by your habit= and the bad decisions of others. They are not really you. Those emotions= have been hiding around solong they feel like they are part of you. But th= e real you existed before them and a growing you exists underthem. You jus= t need to get them off ofyou. At some point you will need to dosomething o= ther than what feels like "you." You will have to act upona "new you" and n= ot what you feel at the moment. The journey forward while trying to restor= ethe good of the past that was lost is a noble journey. You are not up to = the task. But if you listen to God and accept helpalong the way then you w= ill find power given to you for each day. One day at a time will make a ne= w life. I pray blessings upon your journey. Roy,teacher of the journey =20 =20 November 25, 2013 Fad ways of talking come and go.Everything has been =E2=80=9Camazing=E2=80= =9D for a while. Sunset. Amazing. Person. Amazing. Get a draw with your dri= nk.Amazing. Now everything also seems=E2=80=9Cunbelievable.=E2=80=9D Reall= y? Is everything unbelievable? So, I hereby coin a phrase for all time:Ama= zingly unbelievable. And, I will comeup with a prize to anyone who can rig= htly define what I mean when I say: My daywas amazingly unbelievable. Roy,= believably amazing November 24, 2013 I try to help people around theworld =E2=80=A6 in cold and hard times =E2= =80=A6 in the heat of the worst times =E2=80=A6 I help when Ican. There are= an extreme amount of details in every person's life. I find clarity that = will cut through those details.Clarity is what is true and what applies acr= oss life details. I try to find applications of truth that willsurvive. W= hat is true and useful will betimeless. I temper that with advice forthe m= oment. Sometimes you need to makesure you do not miss the bus. There is a= very organic part of life. The farmer and artist know this. It is personal= , real, and grows either worseor better. Sometime life grows both badand b= etter at the same time. Life is thedefinition of personal and the definiti= on of life is relationship. I know whatI write is important and why I am on= the earth. I am open to who God helps. It is important and I will do my pa= rt. Godwill do His. We each much apply the truth through the details. Roy,= finding clarity through the fog ofspiritual warfare =20 November 23, 2013 To my friends who struggle withaddictions and depression ... okay, and the = rest of you normally disturbedpeople: the new you often needs new surroundi= ngs ... just find what values youhold ... and find a way for those to be li= ved out ... don't look for a place... look for the values ... and it will b= e the right place ... Roy, living thevalues Ionce built a bed in the middle of the woods ... I dug holes for two of the= bedposts and used two trees for the other two posts ... I tied small trees= together to make the frame and weaved the support together between this nat= uralbox frame with rope ... it took 8 hours to make and I got to sleep in i= t 6hours ... by most standards it was not worth it ... but I did not sleep = on theground and I left something for the next traveler ... what you are do= ing may betough and there may not be as much reward as you might like ... b= ut you canmake another person's day better =E2=80=A6 Roy, fighting a spirit= ual battle for those Iknow and love and for those I have yet to meet =20 I write this as a sensitiveChristian to other sensitive Christians. We feel= as much as we know. Weunderstand what we feel but we do not always know w= hat that means becauseeverything around us is so different than the way it = should be. I once said, =E2=80=9CI know what it is like to beone among non= e.=E2=80=9D It is a feeling of loneliness you get when you feel you arethe = only Christian around. God is alwaysthere but the feeling is very human an= d very real. I am writing this as an encouragement toother Christians who = understand this feeling. Sometimes I talk to church members or leaders abou= t something I feel isimportant. Suddenly I feel like I am theonly one in t= he room. My encouragementis that the truth that you know to be truth is st= ill true. God is real and you are real. You are a free person in Christ. = Being real in the moment can be painful. Perhaps it is in that realness t= hat the worldis able to hurt us more. But what is thechoice? We need to pr= otect our hearts but we can still be real. This life is too short for us t= o notexist. Please do not let the world makeyou calloused. Just find a sp= ace to beyou and protect that heart so that you stay you. God will change = you in many ways but you willalways be more sensitive than most people. Fee= l but do not despair. We havea God Who feels too. May you always feelGod'= s love my friend. Roy, one among many November 19, 2013 Whentolerance is the highest virtue, it always results in totalitarianism b= ecausethere is no one to stop the moves of the totalitarian. Roy, God is al= ways God November 18, 2013 The first step in preparing totrain again is: ergonomics. You have to evalu= ate your surroundings to see ifany of your actions are harming you. Is your= chair too short or too high? Isyour desk to short or too high? Do you have= a good place to sleep? This fallsunder a phrase I use: Give yourself room.= It means to make your life fit you.You and your body can make certain adju= stments. But there is a limit to how faryou can change without a miracle ha= ppening. You may need to make more tripswith smaller loads. I had to buy a = new computer desk for home. I spend too muchtime at it to have it not fit m= e. It took a long time to get my work desk setup but I did not do the ergon= omic review of my own living area. I challenge youto review your home and w= here you spend a lot of time. See if any of that ishurting you. My journey = will take me back to conditioning and a level ofconditioning I have not kno= wn for decades. But if I do not change myenvironment then I will never get = the proper muscle flexibility and healthnecessary to continue to that point= . So, let=E2=80=99s give ourselves some room. Roy, ergonomically challenge= d at the moment =20 November 16, 2013 Fifteen days from now on December1, 2013 I start my training. If my knee is= not recovered 100% then I will addspecial stretching and strengthening to = my training. I created a speed training system years ago.I will restart th= at slowly. Perhaps God=E2=80=99s purpose will be for me to run tocatch a bu= s one day, to save some life or to meet in friendly competitionsomeone He h= as prepared to meet me. Whatever may come ... I'm on the way. Preparing to= start, Roy I will write a deeper version ofthis but this is the results of several hou= rs of meditation on truth lastnight: Your hurts can make you bitter orcompassionate. The word's way is to be bit= ter about your hurts and think youwill keep this from happening to you agai= n by quickly being defensive when youthink anyone might be approaching that= area. God's desire for our lives is toallow our hurts to help us understan= d how it feels to be hurt. We grow to thinkthat we want to keep that from h= appening to anyone else. We find people whohave been hurt and show them com= passion. Our hurt should not close off to the good in this world. Our hurt= should motivate us to promotegood. It should create in us wisdom tohelp a= void hurt in our lives and the lives of others. May God give you goodness.= May you know healing from your hurts and gaincompassion and wisdom from t= hem. Roy, acompassionate man for many reasons =20 November 13, 2013 =20 I believe it was AlexanderCampbell who preached a great sermon on the Old a= nd New Testament ... in thathe pointed out there was a difference ... and s= ome on how to apply them ... I haven'tread it recently so look forward to s= ome brother making it more clear here ...but I believe ... and I would love= to join a worldwide movement to teach thatthe new testament really begins = with the book of ACTS ... that little page"man" put in your bible ... "THE = NEW TESTAMENT" rightbefore MATTHEW is in the wrong place ... Jesus walked a= nd taught in OldTestament times ... else how could He have nailed the Law t= o the Cross? ...And, so the various denominations who see the prayers in "T= heGospels" (which are pre-gospel time) ... those prayers are Old Testamentp= rayers... We are better off because peopleare free to make new businesses ... to chan= ge their business ... and make theirown economic decisions in their persona= l life ... this "free' system isextremely strong ... the "borrowing" is aga= inst that system ...because it props up failed economic ways ... for exampl= e a "state" inthe union might ruin businesses ... pass out benefits for vot= es ... andgenerally act "un-American" in their economic policies ... that w= ouldgenerally collapse right away ... but through borrowing ... they can ma= ke thefailed system continue for decades ... the end is only one of three w= ays ...some sudden economic "random" benefit ... or inflating the currency.= .. or collapse ... the country as a whole would have collapsed recently ...= but "fracking" was a sudden and random economic benefit ... it wasnot that = random because it was part of the free system ... but its timing was... sha= ll I say ... a God-send ... we as a country are "printing"(now called digit= izing) currency ... which is simply devaluing it ... in orderto prop up the= current "must eventually fail" system of borrowing tosupport current activ= ity ... economic sector collapse happened when rules whereapplied to the ho= using that were against market forces ... but most of thatcollapse was digi= tized away ... you asked November 12, 2013 "It=E2=80=99s not about you" is avery popular in the modern church. Irespe= ct and learn from many who use this phrase. It is used in very successful = churches andincludes a very biblical concept of "putting others first." It= also helps with the problem of"church shopping=E2=80=9D for the best deal.= Yet, I find something wrong with it. It is something spiritual that is adm= ittedly a feeling mixed withbiblical understanding. =20 This is how I see it. I think if Jesus was here that He would walkup to me= , hug me and say, "It=E2=80=99s was you. That is why I died on the cross an= d took life back up." Ministersand church leaders look at the "99" and say,= =E2=80=9CIt=E2=80=99s not about you. It=E2=80=99s about the 1 out there.= =E2=80=9D But we are the "1." I matter to God. Each of us matter to God.= The gathering time is about comforting and preparingthe people with stren= gth and a message. You build a strong people when they gather. That gather= ing time is about them. It not supposed to be just a worship time. Worshi= p is mostly about being quiet beforeGod. =20 November 11, 2013 When you read scriptures ... youdon't see Christians looking around trying = to find where the "anointing"is ... that is what "church shopping" is today= ... and, I would ask... why does the person have to "shout" ... if anointe= d meant who wasfavored by God ... then it might be a quiet little lady ... = or a stutteringpreacher .... God's blessing is not limited to the best and = loudest building... it is being open to God's Spirit on where to be ... Roy= , Preacher TodayI tried to wash off some honey on the honey bottle =E2=80=A6 then I re= alized it wasactually the shape of a bee molded into the plastic =E2=80=A6 = and the thought occurredto me =E2=80=A6 what we think needs to be gotten ri= d of may be the very thing thatpoints to real value =E2=80=A6 Roy November 10, 2013 We are the plants mixed up in thedead roots of weeds. Open up and look up.= The sun and rain willgive you new life. Just grow and change the world. = Roy,growing The sun shines in November like aspring day. A freshness comes out of seaso= n like new grass in winter. Igrow new in emotion and my spirit is undaunte= d. I give respect whererespect is due but I am unbowed to this world. I a= m free and a newseason finds me with renewed strength. I slip past thedark= ness because the Light in me knows it not. Roy, living in a newseason =20 November9, 2013 Doyou know the old saying about "for the want of a nail?" ... it=E2=80=99sa= bout the war being lost because of the big effects of lacking a small thing= ... realized this morning ... all of my "plans" to get something donerestin= g on this small Allen wrench in my pocket ... I only have one that fitsthis= size ... a reminder to think about what things are necessary and guardthos= e things ... those things ... and dare I say people ... and daring more tos= ay faith ... that all of your hopes and dreams rest upon .. Take care of th= ose... keep close track ... guard them with the passion worthy of how impor= tantthey are ... Roy, remembering what is important November8, 2013 ok,this might be a little deep ... I pity the people who try to walk in my = head... I try to walk in the Mind of God ... and those are very deep waters= ... Meditation on Sound and Harmony by Roy Soundconnects the phases. There is = the spiritual and physical phase that we call realms.The rhythm of the hear= t is sound and a timed beat. To move in harmony with thephysical universe t= hen the sound must match the physical rhythm. To move inharmony with the sp= iritual universe then the sound must match the spiritualrhythm. To move in = harmony with both the physical and spiritual realms then thedouble beat of = perfection must be reached where spirit and physical realitycome into harmo= ny. The one who would walk with God must walk in step with theSpirit and wa= lk in truth as determined by the Creator of this physicaluniverse. This phy= sical all is all connected by truth. The Spirit of God spansall and will re= ach across any gaps by a unique concept of sacrifice. The Onewho walked in = complete harmony reconciled the physical and the spiritual backtogether. If= you feel torn apart in your soul from the physical world thenspeak truth. = The white light of truth will shine and make all things right bythe righteo= us word of those who would but speak the words of God by Hisleading. Be rec= onciled and let all things be whole to you. You are in harmonyby the sacrif= ice of the Living One. Walk that way in the double beat of spiritand truth. =20 November5, 2013 The way you fitin ... is you hammer out a space for yourself ... sometimes = you have to changelife to fit you ... Roy, making a place for me =20 November4, 2013 Theremight be many bad things in a room to be concerned about but that does= not meanthe dog won't bite. Roy I'mjust thinking this through ... our alcoholic brother ... here is the USA= ...might be a guy named "America" ... =20 November3, 2013 Itseems to me ... that real change is difficult ... mostly what is"possible= " is to change to a location where our weaknesses don'tresult in harm ... I= 'm much more creative than organized ... though I amorganized in my own way= ... I think very logically ... the weakness to that isI think too much ...= every strength has a weakness ... so, most people read abook once and give= it away ... I read a book once and think ... wow, if I readthat about 20 m= ore times I will begin to incorporate that into all the areas Ineed to ... = the same with an object ... an old painting ... artwork ... hasdepth of mea= ning to me ... so I look at it for a long time ... many times ...so, that i= s the weakness to my strength ... I need to manage that ... changingthat to= any great degree likely will not happen without drastic other changes... I= see this in people I try to help ... if they are "flighty" ...if that is a= word ... if they start something and then suddenly are gone ....they will = appear to change ... until suddenly they are back to where they were... usu= ally because they got caught up in the people or events that make themor tr= igger them to be that way ... it was simply inside them waiting for therigh= t conditions ... so, managing a weakness is as much managing conditions asi= t is anything ... 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just a note added to your messages that = isn't spam ... or about shopping ... just about you ... be good to yourself= ...
give yourself room= ... it is important to leave room for difficulties in your sched= ule ... few things go as smooth as we would like ...
I forget what we last talked about ... I still in the future wa= nt to do the web site ... I wanted to tell you that I there a lot of people= who want to monetize something that they do ... I have heard about the dif= ferent blogs and was of making money doing them ... just thought I would th= rough that in the mix for you to think about if you have not ... it is some= thing I want to do ... along with a website ... I have never decided on "wh= y" on want the site though ... I am creative ... but, do I want to form a n= on-profit ... or just a for profit dot com .... or just a convenient way to= give out what I do ... I'm pasting in some of my more recent writing just = as a blessing to you if you get a chance to read any ...
take care, Roy
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November 29, 2013
To my running friends: Remember you are the best research you will ever find.  Coach Roy
To those facing addiction issues: Facing emotion is the hardest part.  Before you ju= st washed difficult emotions away or numbed them away.  You did not face them.  The biggest issue is just the amount of time.  You hear other people say how short the days are or how they do not = have enough time.  But your day s= eems to last forever sometimes.  If you h= ave nothing to do then your memory kicks in and you start overthinking everything.  You feel a sense of doom someti= mes or that you are forgetting something.  The day seems forever and you want to find a way to shorten it.  You want to find a way to not face the thoughts and emotions.  That= is the temptation to relapse. 
This is difficult and you need the love of God and the love of your loved ones to face it.  But you have to face the thoughts, weaknesses, and memories.  All of them create emotion like a little ball in your belly. You can throw it into the future by drinking or numbing it another way.  But you have d= one that before and you see you are facing it again now.  The only survivable answer is to face it now.  Face it for all its ugliness and you will find that it is very bad and there are results too terrible for you to face= alone.  That is why you nee= d God in your life.  You nee= d to know there is something larger than you because you are facing problems larger than you.=
You do not have to face them all at one.  At some point your own meeting has to end for the day.  There are lots of = issues that are your fault, lots that are the fault of others and just a whole lot of b= ad stuff you cannot figure out.  You can face little bits of it each day.  <= /span>You can overcome little pieces each day.  <= /span>You can allow for the horribleness of life and the greatness of life to exist.  You can face both and face it c= ompletely in time.  Just give yourself th= e time.  <= /div>
Each of those pieces that you face will begin to lose power over you.  It will always in= this lifetime affect you but it does not have to control you.  The negative of the past does not have to cause you to drink or do drugs.  It is as simple as that.  Your life c= an be free of that not matter how much damage has been done.  Remember, many of the emotions you will feel are not really you.  Many negative emotions have be= en implanted into you by your habit and the bad decisions of others.  They are not really you.  Those emotions have been hiding around so long they feel like they are part of you.  But the real you existed before them and a growing you exists under them.  You just need to get = them off of you.  At some point you will= need to do something other than what feels like "you." You will have to act upon a "new you" and not what you feel at the moment.  The journey forward while trying to restore the good of the past that was lost is a noble journey.  You are not up to the task.  But if you listen to God and accept help along the way then you will find power given to you for each day.  One day at a time will make a new li= fe.  I pray blessings upon y= our journey. Roy, teacher of the journey
 
 
November 25, 2013
Fad ways of talking come and go. Everything has been =E2=80=9Camazing=E2=80=9D for a while.  Sunset. Amazing. Person. Amazing. Get a draw with your drink. Amazing.  Now everything als= o seems =E2=80=9Cunbelievable.=E2=80=9D Really? Is everything unbelievable?  So, I hereby coin a phrase for all= time: Amazingly unbelievable.  And= , I will come up with a prize to anyone who can rightly define what I mean when I say: My= day was amazingly unbelievable.  Roy, believably amazing
November 24, 2013
I try to help people around the world =E2=80=A6 in cold and hard times =E2=80=A6 in the heat of the worst t= imes =E2=80=A6 I help when I can. There are an extreme amount of details in every person's life.  I find clarity that will cut throu= gh those details. Clarity is what is true and what applies across life details.  I try to find applications of truth that= will survive.  What is true and u= seful will be timeless.  I temper that wit= h advice for the moment.  Sometimes you n= eed to make sure you do not miss the bus.  There is a very organic part of life. The farmer and artist know this.  It is personal, real, and grows either wor= se or better.  Sometime life gr= ows both bad and better at the same time.  Life is the definition of personal and the definition of life is relationship. I know w= hat I write is important and why I am on the earth.  I am open to who God helps. It is important and I will do my part. G= od will do His. We each much apply the truth through the details.  Roy, finding clarity through the fog = of spiritual warfare
 
November 23, 2013
To my friends who struggle with addictions and depression ... okay, and the rest of you normally disturbed people: the new you often needs new surroundings ... just find what values = you hold ... and find a way for those to be lived out ... don't look for a plac= e ... look for the values ... and it will be the right place ... Roy, living = the values
I once built a bed in the middle of the woods ... I dug holes for two of the = bed posts and used two trees for the other two posts ... I tied small trees together to make the frame and weaved the support together between this nat= ural box frame with rope ... it took 8 hours to make and I got to sleep in it 6 hours ... by most standards it was not worth it ... but I did not sleep on = the ground and I left something for the next traveler ... what you are doing ma= y be tough and there may not be as much reward as you might like ... but you can make another person's day better =E2=80=A6 Roy, fighting a spiritual battle= for those I know and love and for those I have yet to meet
 
I write this as a sensitive Christian to other sensitive Christians.=   We feel as much as we know. = We understand what we feel but we do not always know what that means because everything around us is so different than the way it should be.  I once said, =E2=80=9CI know what it = is like to be one among none.=E2=80=9D It is a feeling of loneliness you get when you fee= l you are the only Christian around.  = God is always there but the feeling is very human and very real.  I am writing this as an encouragement to other Christians who understand this feeling.  Sometimes I talk to church members or leaders about something I feel= is important.  Suddenly I feel = like I am the only one in the room.  My en= couragement is that the truth that you know to be truth is still true.  God is real and you are real.  You are a free person in Christ.  Being real in the moment can be pa= inful.  Perhaps it is in tha= t realness that the world is able to hurt us more.  Bu= t what is the choice? We need to protect our hearts but we can still be real.  This life is too short for us to not exist.  Please do not let th= e world make you calloused.  Just find a = space to be you and protect that heart so that you stay you.  God will change you in many ways but you will always be more sensitive than most people.  We have a God Who feels too.  May yo= u always feel God's love my friend. Roy, one among many
November 19, 2013
When tolerance is the highest virtue, it always results in totalitarianism becau= se there is no one to stop the moves of the totalitarian. Roy, God is always G= od
November 18, 2013
The first step in preparing to train again is: ergonomics. You have to evaluate your surroundings to see i= f any of your actions are harming you. Is your chair too short or too high? I= s your desk to short or too high? Do you have a good place to sleep? This fal= ls under a phrase I use: Give yourself room. It means to make your life fit yo= u. You and your body can make certain adjustments. But there is a limit to how= far you can change without a miracle happening. You may need to make more trips with smaller loads. I had to buy a new computer desk for home. I spend too = much time at it to have it not fit me. It took a long time to get my work desk s= et up but I did not do the ergonomic review of my own living area. I challenge= you to review your home and where you spend a lot of time. See if any of that i= s hurting you. My journey will take me back to conditioning and a level of conditioning I have not known for decades. But if I do not change my environment then I will never get the proper muscle flexibility and health necessary to continue to that point. So, let=E2=80=99s give ourselves some = room.  Roy, ergonomically ch= allenged at the moment
 
November 16, 2013
Fifteen days from now on December 1, 2013 I start my training. If my knee is not recovered 100% then I will a= dd special stretching and strengthening to my training.  I created a speed training system years ago. I will restart that slowly. Perhaps God=E2=80=99s purpose will be for me to= run to catch a bus one day, to save some life or to meet in friendly competition someone He has prepared to meet me. Whatever may come ... I'm on the way.  Preparing to start, Roy=
I will write a deeper version of this but this is the results of several hours of meditation on truth last night:
Your hurts can make you bitter or compassionate. The word's way is to be bitter about your hurts and think yo= u will keep this from happening to you again by quickly being defensive when = you think anyone might be approaching that area. God's desire for our lives is = to allow our hurts to help us understand how it feels to be hurt. We grow to t= hink that we want to keep that from happening to anyone else. We find people who have been hurt and show them compassion.=   Our hurt should not close off to the good in this world.  Our hurt should motivate us to promot= e good.  It should create in u= s wisdom to help avoid hurt in our lives and the lives of others.  May God give you goodness.  May you know healing from your hurts and gain compassion and wisdom from them.  <= /span>Roy, a compassionate man for many reasons
 
November 13, 2013
 
I believe it was Alexander Campbell who preached a great sermon on the Old and New Testament ... in th= at he pointed out there was a difference ... and some on how to apply them ...= I haven't read it recently so look forward to some brother making it more clear here = ... but I believe ... and I would love to join a worldwide movement to teach th= at the new testament really begins with the book of ACTS ... that little page "man" put in your bible ... "THE NEW TESTAMENT" right before MATTHEW is in the wrong place ... Jesus walked and taught in Old Testament times ... else how could He have nailed the Law to the Cross? ... And, so the various denominations who see the prayers in "The Gospels" (which are pre-gospel time) ... those prayers are Old Testament prayers...
We are better off because people are free to make new businesses ... to change their business ... and make t= heir own economic decisions in their personal life ... this "free' system is extremely strong ... the "borrowing" is against that system ... because it props up failed economic ways ... for example a "state" in the union might ruin businesses ... pass out benefits for votes ... and generally act "un-American" in their economic policies ... that would generally collapse right away ... but through borrowing ... they can make t= he failed system continue for decades ... the end is only one of three ways ..= . some sudden economic "random" benefit ... or inflating the currency ... or collapse ... the country as a whole would have collapsed recently ..= . but "fracking" was a sudden and random economic benefit ... it was not that random because it was part of the free system ... but its timing w= as ... shall I say ... a God-send ... we as a country are "printing" (now called digitizing) currency ... which is simply devaluing it ... in or= der to prop up the current "must eventually fail" system of borrowing to support current activity ... economic sector collapse happened when rules w= here applied to the housing that were against market forces ... but most of that collapse was digitized away ... you asked
November 12, 2013
"It=E2=80=99s not about you" is a very popular in the modern church. = I respect and learn from many who use this phrase.  It is used in very successful churches and includes a very biblical concept of "putting others first."  It also helps with the problem of "church shopping=E2=80=9D for the best deal.  Yet, I find something wrong with it.  It is something spiritual that is admittedly a feeling mixed with biblical understanding. 
This is how I see it.  I think if Jesus was here that He would walk up to me, hug me and say, "It=E2=80=99s was you.  That is why I died on the cross and took life back up." Ministers and church leaders look at the "99" and say, =E2=80=9CIt=E2=80=99s not abou= t you.  It=E2=80=99s about t= he 1 out there.=E2=80=9D  Bu= t we are the "1."  I matter = to God.  Each of us matter t= o God.  The gathering time i= s about comforting and preparing the people with strength and a message.&= nbsp; You build a strong people when they gather.  That gathering time is about them.  It not supposed to be just a worship time.<= span style=3D"mso-spacerun: yes;">  Worship is mostly about bei= ng quiet before God.
 
November 11, 2013
When you read scriptures ... you don't see Christians looking around trying to find where the "anointing" is ... that is what "church shopping" is today ... and, I would ask ... why does the person have to "shout" ... if anointed meant who was favored by God ... then it might be a quiet little lady ... or a stuttering preacher .... God's blessing is not limited to the best and loudest buildin= g ... it is being open to God's Spirit on where to be ... Roy, Preacher<= /o:p>
Today I tried to wash off some honey on the honey bottle =E2=80=A6 then I realize= d it was actually the shape of a bee molded into the plastic =E2=80=A6 and the thoug= ht occurred to me =E2=80=A6 what we think needs to be gotten rid of may be the very thi= ng that points to real value =E2=80=A6 Roy
November 10, 2013
We are the plants mixed up in the dead roots of weeds.  Open up and look up.  The sun and rain will give you new life.  Just grow and change the world.  Roy, growing
The sun shines in November like a spring day. A freshness comes out of season like new grass in winter. = I grow new in emotion and my spirit is undaunted.  I give respect where respect is due but I am unbowed to this world.  I am free and a new season finds me with renewed strength.  I slip past the darkness because the Light in me knows it not.  Roy, living in a = new season
 
November 9, 2013
Do you know the old saying about "for the want of a nail?" ... it=E2=80=99s about the war being lost because of the big effects of lacking a small thin= g ... realized this morning ... all of my "plans" to get something done resting on this small Allen wrench in my pocket ... I only have one that fi= ts this size ... a reminder to think about what things are necessary and guard those things ... those things ... and dare I say people ... and daring more= to say faith ... that all of your hopes and dreams rest upon .. Take care of t= hose ... keep close track ... guard them with the passion worthy of how importan= t they are ... Roy, remembering what is important
November 8, 2013
ok, this might be a little deep ... I pity the people who try to walk in my hea= d ... I try to walk in the Mind of God ... and those are very deep waters ...=
 Meditation on Sound an= d Harmony by Roy Sound connects the phases. There is the spiritual and physical phase that we call= realms. The rhythm of the heart is sound and a timed beat. To move in harmony with = the physical universe then the sound must match the physical rhythm. To move in harmony with the spiritual universe then the sound must match the spiritual rhythm. To move in harmony with both the physical and spiritual realms then= the double beat of perfection must be reached where spirit and physical reality come into harmony. The one who would walk with God must walk in step with t= he Spirit and walk in truth as determined by the Creator of this physical universe. This physical all is all connected by truth. The Spirit of God sp= ans all and will reach across any gaps by a unique concept of sacrifice. The On= e who walked in complete harmony reconciled the physical and the spiritual ba= ck together. If you feel torn apart in your soul from the physical world then speak truth. The white light of truth will shine and make all things right = by the righteous word of those who would but speak the words of God by His leading. Be reconciled and let all things be whole to you. You are in harmo= ny by the sacrifice of the Living One. Walk that way in the double beat of spi= rit and truth.
 
November 5, 2013
The way y= ou fit in ... is you hammer out a space for yourself ... sometimes you have to cha= nge life to fit you ... Roy, making a place for me
 
November 4, 2013
There might be many bad things in a room to be concerned about but that does not = mean the dog won't bite.  Roy
I'm just thinking this through ... our alcoholic brother ... here is the USA ..= . might be a guy named "America" ...
 
November 3, 2013
It seems to me ... that real change is difficult ... mostly what is "possible" is to change to a location where our weaknesses don't result in harm ... I'm much more creative than organized ... though I am organized in my own way ... I think very logically ... the weakness to that= is I think too much ... every strength has a weakness ... so, most people read= a book once and give it away ... I read a book once and think ... wow, if I r= ead that about 20 more times I will begin to incorporate that into all the area= s I need to ... the same with an object ... an old painting ... artwork ... has depth of meaning to me ... so I look at it for a long time ... many times .= .. so, that is the weakness to my strength ... I need to manage that ... chang= ing that to any great degree likely will not happen without drastic other chang= es ... I see this in people I try to help ... if they are "flighty" ... if that is a word ... if they start something and then suddenly are gone ..= .. they will appear to change ... until suddenly they are back to where they w= ere ... usually because they got caught up in the people or events that make th= em or trigger them to be that way ... it was simply inside them waiting for th= e right conditions ... so, managing a weakness is as much managing conditions= as it is anything ... I'm going to try to improve the conditions around me so = that my weaknesses
 
 
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